If you were my friend and I dedicated this song to you how would you feel?

i used to be friends with this guy but I liked him more than just a friend one day I screwed up and told him somethings I shouldn't have when I was drunk...I said those things cause I was stupid and felt sad cause he slept with some other girl. After what I did I tried to talk to him but he wouldn't open his door...I said I was sorry begged him to please open the door but he never did. And it hurt even more when he would ignore me like if I didn't even exist...I guess I deserved it... Anyways I left without telling him I was leaving ( we lived in the same trailer) after his sister told me what he said about me... That he never wanted to speak to me again. So I left out of respect and also cause it hurt. I left him a letter apologizing and wishing him the best...which my cousin found crumpled up on the floor after he read it. A year ped and I was almost getting over him when he reappeared all of a sudden and tried to talk to me I was confused and felt ashamed for hurting him I felt like I didn't even deserve to be his friend yet in the end I have always loved him...if you were that friend and I dedicated this song to you how would you feel? Creeped out? Sick? just wondering answer honestly what you would think of me would you still... hate me? and would you finally figure out that I felt something for you? The song is called you could be happy-by snow patrol you can find it on YouTube with the lyrics.